Once in awhile we should all sit back for a moment and just reflect on our past. While our past should never define us as a person, it definitely is part of who we become and how we think. I was at the nail salon getting a much needed pedicure with my friend Heather and while we were chatting away about this and that, the subject of blogging and getting our thoughts out of head and in the open came up...I know pretty intense conversation for the nail salon..lol. In all honesty though it helped me tremendously. I talked about a conversation I had with my mom about my early childhood and all the things I had pushed back so far into my mind that I couldn't remember any of it. What I thought was a dream of me being put in a car with suitcases and such was about me moving...it was in fact a real life event of being taken away by CPS. Its scary to think that I have had this dream on a few occasions and not until we talked about my childhood did it all make sense. I would love to say that my childhood was full of happiness and love with nothing bad ever happening but that is not the case. Once I was living with my mom, that was when my life took a turn...sure there were bumpy roads and sure it was sometimes scary for reasons I might explain later but I felt the love and had the stability I so desperately needed. Sadly my way of coping with tragedy or "bad" thing in my life is to push them so far back into my mind that I forget the actual events of it and have to be told what happened. Even something as recent as 6yrs ago I have to be reminded or reread past blog entries to remember the events of it all.
Anyway...my point is that even though we remember the past or in my case forget the past...it shouldn't define who we are but help us to remember that we are strong in our own way and that we can overcome life's obstacles.
With that in mind....think of this "God does not send us through storms we can not handle but does so to only make us stronger for the future"
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