So I got a call from a friend the other day and she tells me her company has an open position and thought of me. Now before you say or think anything...I know I have only been at my current job for 10mos but seriously, I only took the job because I needed a permanent position and benefits because the last one was a contract position. Since then I have determined that I really can't see myself doing this for a long time. So when she called I jumped on it. So I am prepping my resume and will hopefully spark an interest for an interview.
Now on the other hand, when I mention this to my husband...his response? "You haven't even been at this one a year! You promised!" I promised, I know, but how can I pass up a chance to work for a better company, with locations all over the area, and MORE money? You would think my husband at least supportive, but instead goes the other way. Like he doesn't want me to better myself and my salary. I don't understand this...
Anyone want to enlighten me on this?
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Decisions...
Part I
Some are easy and some are just down right difficult. Everyday I make the easy decision to get up and go to work and to raise my kids the best I can. However everyday I struggle with the decision to either stay in my marriage and make it work or to walk away knowing that I tried.
We started out with one of those stories that most dream of... childhood sweethearts who loose touch and 20yrs later we meet again and get married. Our first year together was rough and emotional but we made it through. Things were alright for two more years and we (or really maybe just me) have been struggling ever since. I'm worn down and really feel that is why I struggle everyday.
I feel like I'm alone in this marriage, we're room-mates that just happen to sleep in the same bed. We have separate lives, things we are invited to as a couple he goes to with out me just because the kids are home instead of declining the invite. When I plan things with the kids; he stays home. I can't talk to him the way I want to..the way I need to.
(it took me 2 hours to write this first part because my thoughts are so scrambled)
Part II
So the past weekend, I didn't necessarily have a epiphany or awaking of what I wanted to do but more of a talk with one of my girlfriends about the situation at hand. Through the talking and the spilling of my thoughts I realized...I have had my answer to my solution all this time. That deep down I knew and know what I want. So I am going to act upon it and move forward until my mission is complete.
When the time is right I will reveal the mission but until then its top secret :)
ps...totally on another subject. But when did it become the Man's position to tell his wife when to leave a job and when to stay? Granted I havent been at my job for a year yet..BUT since I started so much has changed and its just a job now. I don't enjoy it as much anymore. So if you were not happy at your current job, and had an oppotunity with a great company and a chance for more money as well...would you at least look into it??
Some are easy and some are just down right difficult. Everyday I make the easy decision to get up and go to work and to raise my kids the best I can. However everyday I struggle with the decision to either stay in my marriage and make it work or to walk away knowing that I tried.
We started out with one of those stories that most dream of... childhood sweethearts who loose touch and 20yrs later we meet again and get married. Our first year together was rough and emotional but we made it through. Things were alright for two more years and we (or really maybe just me) have been struggling ever since. I'm worn down and really feel that is why I struggle everyday.
I feel like I'm alone in this marriage, we're room-mates that just happen to sleep in the same bed. We have separate lives, things we are invited to as a couple he goes to with out me just because the kids are home instead of declining the invite. When I plan things with the kids; he stays home. I can't talk to him the way I want to..the way I need to.
(it took me 2 hours to write this first part because my thoughts are so scrambled)
Part II
So the past weekend, I didn't necessarily have a epiphany or awaking of what I wanted to do but more of a talk with one of my girlfriends about the situation at hand. Through the talking and the spilling of my thoughts I realized...I have had my answer to my solution all this time. That deep down I knew and know what I want. So I am going to act upon it and move forward until my mission is complete.
When the time is right I will reveal the mission but until then its top secret :)
ps...totally on another subject. But when did it become the Man's position to tell his wife when to leave a job and when to stay? Granted I havent been at my job for a year yet..BUT since I started so much has changed and its just a job now. I don't enjoy it as much anymore. So if you were not happy at your current job, and had an oppotunity with a great company and a chance for more money as well...would you at least look into it??
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