Time...

too much time alone is dangerous.  All you have time to do is think...and think...and think.

Typical day on the computer checking email, cleaning out the spam, so forth.  Then on to FB and there lies the problem.  Time alone and boredom again is dangerous.  I see posts on my sons FB and decided to log in and check around.  Lots of "friends" on there I don't know, his girlfriend, and his dad's girlfriend..or whatever she is this week.

Any who, I see there's a message and of course I read it..yes I admit...I was snooping.  A "friend" says his g/f is cheating....wow.  so after investigating more.  His g/f only a few days ago went from in a relationship to its complicated to (just yesterday) single.  As I read on more, one of her posts is about how upset she is and then her "friends" make comments about how she was in an 11mo relationship but yet always seems to be in another during that same time.  That she also wanted to go out another guy (according to him) while she is supposedly dating my son, but says her and Bubba are back together again as of yesterday....wow.  I'm shocked at the teens today.  I don't know what to say to him or do.

OK so I got off track, my original reason is the ex girlfriend has an album labeled "our family".  Now anyone who knows me and the things that go on, knows that she is anything BUT a motherly figure in my boys' lives.  She is always yelling at the kids (her own included), her and the ex get into physical fights, cops get called, she's been in jail for assault against their Grandma and their dad, he moves out almost on a regular basis, yet goes back to her every time...and she thinks she has the right to include my boys as "her" family??  It angers me and saddens me at the same time.  My boys want to come home, but I do not have the finances to get them back...not to mention that in cases like mine, the judges in our area have the attitude of "its been over a year and things are working "fine" why change them now?"  Why change them now?!  Because my kids don't want to live in a house where everything is in a uproar and unstable.  They want to be in their own room and able to call things "theirs" and not have to feel guilted into staying with their dad.  Unfortunately their dad is a jerk as well and anytime the kids even mention it, he gets upset and lays on the guilt trip..."do you know what i have done to keep a roof over your head?" and so on.

So yeah too much time on your hands results in this....lol.  I think i need to go out to the pool and get some sun...