I've been so busy lately with work, traveling and my inner thoughts that I skipped one thing!
As of last week, I hit 30 days smoke free!! I have found myself chewing lots and LOTS of gum, but that's ok...my new found addiction is Orbits Bubblemint YUM! I get my two favorite things in one little peice...bubblegum flavor with a hint of mint to freshen up. I carry around the big 60pc container and every time I get the urge to smoke I just grab a piece and start chewing! The only downside is that my jaw is sore from all the chewing but its a small price to pay to not pick up food and eat bad things.
So there's my good news, guess its about time huh? lol
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Ruts...
It seems lately that all I post are serious posts with almost nothing positive to say...where's my happiness?
This past week the boys and I visited mom in Memphis and just piddled around town, shopping and site seeing and then winding the visit down on Beale Street. It was a great time spent with the boys before school starts and seeing mom again. We make our next trip there for Thanksgiving and then hopefully the next trip there is to pack her place up and move her back to her real home here.
So we're on our way home and I am plowing through the 497 miles to get home...home to my husband, my bed, our dog and just relax before a long day at work. Finally I'm home! Our dog greets me at the door and my husband follows. Things are normal...said he left dinner meat out to make dinner and that he would cook. Awesome! Then comes a call from our friend that lives close by, the next thing I know my husband leaves and doesnt come back for almost 2hrs. Oh but he went over there because our friend was cooking steaks and brought me one home. Ok thats great, neither one of us has to cook but he leaves again to take butter back over there...another hour goes by and he comes back home.
Now don't get me wrong, I tpyically wouldnt be bothered by something like this..but seriously? Your wife is gone for 5 days...away from you...and all you can spend with her is about an hour? You can't tell your buddy that your wife is home and you want to spend time with her? I guess not.
Am I wrong for having a "I don't feel important to you" feeling?
This past week the boys and I visited mom in Memphis and just piddled around town, shopping and site seeing and then winding the visit down on Beale Street. It was a great time spent with the boys before school starts and seeing mom again. We make our next trip there for Thanksgiving and then hopefully the next trip there is to pack her place up and move her back to her real home here.
So we're on our way home and I am plowing through the 497 miles to get home...home to my husband, my bed, our dog and just relax before a long day at work. Finally I'm home! Our dog greets me at the door and my husband follows. Things are normal...said he left dinner meat out to make dinner and that he would cook. Awesome! Then comes a call from our friend that lives close by, the next thing I know my husband leaves and doesnt come back for almost 2hrs. Oh but he went over there because our friend was cooking steaks and brought me one home. Ok thats great, neither one of us has to cook but he leaves again to take butter back over there...another hour goes by and he comes back home.
Now don't get me wrong, I tpyically wouldnt be bothered by something like this..but seriously? Your wife is gone for 5 days...away from you...and all you can spend with her is about an hour? You can't tell your buddy that your wife is home and you want to spend time with her? I guess not.
Am I wrong for having a "I don't feel important to you" feeling?
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Siblings...
When you have siblings most would think you know each other almost as well as the back of your hands. You fight with each other sure, but in the end you are still blood and love each other till the end.
Last night I watched the HBO documentary special There's Something Wrong with Aunt Diane, its a story of a "super mom" type mother driving home from a camping trip with her 3 children and 2 neices who drives the wrong way on a NY highway, killing herself, 2 of her children, both of her neices as well as 3 other innocent drivers. Autopsy results show that she was drunk and high on pot. It was a heavy documentary to watch but intriging at the same time.
Her family is in denial that she would ever purposely drink and drive let alone smoke putting the children in danger like that but later admit that they kept a botle of Vodka in their camper during the season for camping trips and admit that she occasionally smoked to help her relax so she could sleep at night.
While I can not relate to this situation directly...I can relate to loosing a loved one in such a way. My family lost a very dear member, my brother, in a drunk driving accident. I won't go into details of the story that unfolded, but my brother was the innocent driver killed while the guilty walked away and only served 4yrs for his crime but that's not my point of this post.
My point is that after watching this show, it made me think...how much did or do I really know my brother? We grew up together until a certain point and then were separated. He lived with my dad and I with my mom. That's just how our lives worked out. After he died, it seemed all I really knew about him was his favorite football team and that he joined the service....I never really knew my brother but one thing I did know, he was the one I looked up to, the one I called my hero. It made me sad to think that the one person I am suppose to know, I didn't really know. I remember being so upset because the last time I spoke to him, I didn't tell him I loved him...did I need to tell him or did he already know? I will never know and only hope he knew.
Always tell your loved ones you love them, take the time to show them how much they mean to you.
Last night I watched the HBO documentary special There's Something Wrong with Aunt Diane, its a story of a "super mom" type mother driving home from a camping trip with her 3 children and 2 neices who drives the wrong way on a NY highway, killing herself, 2 of her children, both of her neices as well as 3 other innocent drivers. Autopsy results show that she was drunk and high on pot. It was a heavy documentary to watch but intriging at the same time.
Her family is in denial that she would ever purposely drink and drive let alone smoke putting the children in danger like that but later admit that they kept a botle of Vodka in their camper during the season for camping trips and admit that she occasionally smoked to help her relax so she could sleep at night.
While I can not relate to this situation directly...I can relate to loosing a loved one in such a way. My family lost a very dear member, my brother, in a drunk driving accident. I won't go into details of the story that unfolded, but my brother was the innocent driver killed while the guilty walked away and only served 4yrs for his crime but that's not my point of this post.
My point is that after watching this show, it made me think...how much did or do I really know my brother? We grew up together until a certain point and then were separated. He lived with my dad and I with my mom. That's just how our lives worked out. After he died, it seemed all I really knew about him was his favorite football team and that he joined the service....I never really knew my brother but one thing I did know, he was the one I looked up to, the one I called my hero. It made me sad to think that the one person I am suppose to know, I didn't really know. I remember being so upset because the last time I spoke to him, I didn't tell him I loved him...did I need to tell him or did he already know? I will never know and only hope he knew.
Always tell your loved ones you love them, take the time to show them how much they mean to you.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
I'm quitting..
I've been a smoker since I was 17yrs old and early this month I got a bad cold that later turned to bronchitis. Any who, since getting sick I have smoked maybe 4-6 cigarettes in the last month. So I figured that since I have cut down drastically...I am on the road of trying to quit my smoking habit. Orbitz Bubblemint gum is my new best friend...lol
So there's a short update on the happenings in my little life....have a great weekend everyone!
So there's a short update on the happenings in my little life....have a great weekend everyone!
Monday, July 18, 2011
Bootcamp
I started a Boot camp class not too long ago in order to stick with my resolution of the new job and loosing the weight. I actually weighed myself the other week and it definitely wasn't as bad as I thought but definitely not as good as I wanted...I need to loose 45lbs to be at my "happy" weight...not the weight the doctors say I should be...but the weight that makes ME happy.
Since then I have had to quit boot camp for financial reasons but with the tools I learned in the class I can continue doing the exercises until I can get back in class. My trainer is awesome, he's motivating and has faith I can do all the exercises from start to finish. It helps ALOT. Anywho that's all the update for now with out going into details lol.
Have a great week everyone!
Since then I have had to quit boot camp for financial reasons but with the tools I learned in the class I can continue doing the exercises until I can get back in class. My trainer is awesome, he's motivating and has faith I can do all the exercises from start to finish. It helps ALOT. Anywho that's all the update for now with out going into details lol.
Have a great week everyone!
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