it's time to eat my words....i GOT THE JOB! I will officially be a permanent employee making more pay with guaranteed overtime and still be close to home on December 13th...I'm really excited about this new adventure. Now I have to stick with my goal and start taking better care of myself. Here's to staying motivated.
On another note, last week was a little weird for me in the aspect of my mood and slight depression. Even with the great news of the job, I was questioning my marriage and whether I still wanted to make things work. We went through a rough patch at the beginning of the year and I thought we were on the right path to making things work. I still have my days. I have issues I need to work on but I also know that as a couple WE have things to work on. I have always thought that if there are problems in a relationship, you should work on yourself before you are able to work on the relationship....is that really true? Does concentrating on your needs instead of the needs as a couple really help? I don't want to wake up on another 4th of July (there's a story there..but later) and realize that this is not where I want to be, that I wasted more time on something that should have walked away from long ago. I love my husband with out a doubt, that's why I'm still here trying with my all my might, so why am I having these feelings?
I guess another question is...is anyone out there to begin with reading this? lol
I am out here reading this! :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the job. That is great news.
I hope you're able to sort through your marriage questions. It's tough when those less-than-positive feelings sneak in. They're damn hard to get rid of. ((hugs))