This weekend started out normal, but ended well scary.
Hubby and I had gone out Saturday night and since I was driving I literally had one drink and 3 jello shots then drank water the rest of the night until we left at 1am. I went to sleep about 3am and it was off to dream land.
Sunday I woke up to the dog barking and my leg gave out and down to the floor I went. My ankle was hurting and the next thing I know I'm over come with a heaviness and sweats. Then my husband and yelling at me to wake up and asking his friend to call 911. I was sweating something aweful! Apprantly I had blacked out and had a seizure. You know the eyes rolling back and my toungue was sticking out. He got me presentable before the perimedics arrived because I could barely tell what was going on.
I'm taken to the hospital where I'm pumped up with fluids, taken for a CAT scan and blood taken for testing. Sugar level was fine, my blood pressure was low and I was dehydrated (remember the night before I had drank nothing but water...at least 4-5 bottles). By the end of the night my blood pressure was back to normal, they had hydrated me, and all my tests came back normal. Now they pump me up with 1000mg of Kepra (anti-seizure meds), restrict me from driving and 2 days off from work until I get clearance from a Neurologist.
Great....all of this with no insurance. How am I going to do this?! So there it is. I'm ok now and feel almost normal, but i'm scared at the same time because trying to figure out how to afford the Neurologist and the tests they are going need to do plus knowing that this is not something I can shrug off. I'm sure its nothing since the CAT scan came back fine, but what if this happens again...what if the next time is worse?
So much to think about.....
Monday, August 30, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Progress...( very long)
The last 5 days have not only been eventful but emotional....school is back in session. I typically have more upbeat things going on but I wanted to use this blog as an outlet for my thoughts, feelings, frustrations, happiness, and sadness. Whatever is happening in my life at the time.
Thursday was Teacher night at the boys school so I left work early to pick up the boys and head there so I could basically drive almost 2hrs (with traffic) for this, which I happily do for my boys. The boys are in middle this year and oh my goodness the place was crazy! Kids and parents all over trying to find the classrooms. With so many people there it took us almost 2hrs just to find them, introduce ourselves and fill out a Sign-in form for each class *sigh* Then it was off to the Gym for the Athletics meeting (that we didn't attend..lol) We exchanged supplies and the kids were off with there dad. Then it was off to mom's to help her with some things since she had foot surgery. Reaching home about 9, I was ready to pass out!
Friday came with avengance! Left work (in the Dallas area mind you) drove to the other side of town near Fort Worth for a quick meeting then to back to mom's area to meet a friend so I could pick up some things from her and then to mom's again. Phew! Made home by 10pm.
Saturday was no different from the last few days. Got up early to get a little me time in which was too short, then off to mom's for errands. Finished those and then it was more school shopping, which had it own twists and turns, driving from here to there. Back to mom's afterwards to drop some other things off, and finally....home.
By then I couldn't do anymore and just wanted to get home. Sunday was going to be my day to relax and do absolutely nothing. It worked. Nothing had to be done, I didn't go anywhere but to Walgreen's for milk. My mission had been accomplished!
So when yesterday morning came....it all hit me like a ton of bricks. My boys, the ones who lived with me until they were 9 & 10yrs old, the ones who would climb into Grandma's bed cause it was comfy, the ones who gave me kisses for no reason, were now in 7th grade and in middle school. Their first day of middle school, their first day of 7th grade....their first day and I was missing it. I was a part of so many firsts and it still affects me the same way no matter what. I wanted so much to the "embarrassing" mom just so I can see them on their first day. I called them to wish them good luck on their first day and asked their dad to please send me a picture. I see the first picture..cute of course....I see the second one....I start to tear up. It was a picture of them walking away from their dad and into the school. I felt like they were walking away from me....they are growing faster them I am ready for them to, but I know that is the way it goes. You cant stop them from growing and becoming more independent. I finished my moment and went on my way to work.
Today was no different. It started with a text from the ex. "Thay both...make me so proud.." (yes he has horrible spelling) with another following "5am football" Forgot to mention my youngest is in football this year and has never played but that's what he wanted. So while I was in a good and happy mood, I reply "Sucks to be you...let me know if he has a scrimmage I can go to" We have a sarcastic but understanding type of "ex to ex" relationship. Then the tears start coming...just another thing to remind they are growing up and I'm missing alot by being so far from them. I try to go to as many meetings, conferences, events, etc as I can but it never seems to be enough. I know they know I love them and would do anything for them, but it doesn't change the sadness that sometimes comes over me.
Ok so there it is...my busy and emotional 5days. Let me tell you I am glad they are over, well at least the emotional part. This weekend is relaxing and spending time with my boys!
Have a great week everyone!
Thursday was Teacher night at the boys school so I left work early to pick up the boys and head there so I could basically drive almost 2hrs (with traffic) for this, which I happily do for my boys. The boys are in middle this year and oh my goodness the place was crazy! Kids and parents all over trying to find the classrooms. With so many people there it took us almost 2hrs just to find them, introduce ourselves and fill out a Sign-in form for each class *sigh* Then it was off to the Gym for the Athletics meeting (that we didn't attend..lol) We exchanged supplies and the kids were off with there dad. Then it was off to mom's to help her with some things since she had foot surgery. Reaching home about 9, I was ready to pass out!
Friday came with avengance! Left work (in the Dallas area mind you) drove to the other side of town near Fort Worth for a quick meeting then to back to mom's area to meet a friend so I could pick up some things from her and then to mom's again. Phew! Made home by 10pm.
Saturday was no different from the last few days. Got up early to get a little me time in which was too short, then off to mom's for errands. Finished those and then it was more school shopping, which had it own twists and turns, driving from here to there. Back to mom's afterwards to drop some other things off, and finally....home.
By then I couldn't do anymore and just wanted to get home. Sunday was going to be my day to relax and do absolutely nothing. It worked. Nothing had to be done, I didn't go anywhere but to Walgreen's for milk. My mission had been accomplished!
So when yesterday morning came....it all hit me like a ton of bricks. My boys, the ones who lived with me until they were 9 & 10yrs old, the ones who would climb into Grandma's bed cause it was comfy, the ones who gave me kisses for no reason, were now in 7th grade and in middle school. Their first day of middle school, their first day of 7th grade....their first day and I was missing it. I was a part of so many firsts and it still affects me the same way no matter what. I wanted so much to the "embarrassing" mom just so I can see them on their first day. I called them to wish them good luck on their first day and asked their dad to please send me a picture. I see the first picture..cute of course....I see the second one....I start to tear up. It was a picture of them walking away from their dad and into the school. I felt like they were walking away from me....they are growing faster them I am ready for them to, but I know that is the way it goes. You cant stop them from growing and becoming more independent. I finished my moment and went on my way to work.
Today was no different. It started with a text from the ex. "Thay both...make me so proud.." (yes he has horrible spelling) with another following "5am football" Forgot to mention my youngest is in football this year and has never played but that's what he wanted. So while I was in a good and happy mood, I reply "Sucks to be you...let me know if he has a scrimmage I can go to" We have a sarcastic but understanding type of "ex to ex" relationship. Then the tears start coming...just another thing to remind they are growing up and I'm missing alot by being so far from them. I try to go to as many meetings, conferences, events, etc as I can but it never seems to be enough. I know they know I love them and would do anything for them, but it doesn't change the sadness that sometimes comes over me.
Ok so there it is...my busy and emotional 5days. Let me tell you I am glad they are over, well at least the emotional part. This weekend is relaxing and spending time with my boys!
Have a great week everyone!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
My next quest...
Learning Photography ...I found this website that was quite interesting and will definitely read up on it so I can get better pictures with my camera. Mom has a wedding she will be taking pictures of and invited me with her to help. Should be interesting to say the least..lol. I've always been interested and would really like to get into photography now that I have a great starter camera and maybe if I get enough experience, I just might be able to make a side job out of it...who knows!
Saturday, August 21, 2010
What qualifies...
someone as a "good" or "bad" parent?
I read a post regarding the MTV show "Teen Mom" (which I watch almost regularly) and the person said she was basically appalled by this teen mom. Stating that some one should call Child Protective Services on this mom. Here's the situation:
The mom had decided to sell her car on Craigslist and was scammed out of $3000 by one of those requesting the car be shipped. So in the midst of talking with her banker and the wire transfer company to work things out, she had left the room. During that time (which the way it was aired seemed like less than a minute, who knows), her baby had fallen off the bed to which she ran to immediately. There was another incident where the tub water was too hot and (in the commenter's reply to said poster) said she had burned the baby.
Being that I have been in the single parent scene of trying to raise my own 2 boys, I can really understand exactly where this mom is at and the stresses that come along with doing things on your own. Granted she has the opportunity to make amends with her family and regain that support every single parent needs, but feels she can not due to the situation. She provides a home, food, clothing, etc and most importantly love. Sure along the way there will bumps and bruises, and there will be sadness but there will also be happiness.
The camera crew and producers see more than what is aired on the actual shows. So don't you think that if the baby was in ANY kind of danger of abuse, the proper authorities would be called? I would like to believe that any logical person would.
I have always thought, in my opinion, that people without children do not fully understand the daily struggles parents go through, but that is not really truthful. In reality...it may lie more with one's opinions. What I may think as nothing to worry about, the next person could think it is something to worry about. My ex husband is my case in point...for every cut, bruise, and illness...he want to rush them to the ER or blame me for it.
So my question is again...what qualifies some one as a good or bad parent?
Teen Mom (Season 2) Ep. 5 'Secrets & Lies': "Catelynn and Tyler find their romance back on the rocks when Catelynn reveals another lie, and a big fight makes Amber question her engagement to Gary. Maci's boyfriend meets Bentley for the first time, and Farrah falls victim to a scam."
I read a post regarding the MTV show "Teen Mom" (which I watch almost regularly) and the person said she was basically appalled by this teen mom. Stating that some one should call Child Protective Services on this mom. Here's the situation:
The mom had decided to sell her car on Craigslist and was scammed out of $3000 by one of those requesting the car be shipped. So in the midst of talking with her banker and the wire transfer company to work things out, she had left the room. During that time (which the way it was aired seemed like less than a minute, who knows), her baby had fallen off the bed to which she ran to immediately. There was another incident where the tub water was too hot and (in the commenter's reply to said poster) said she had burned the baby.
Being that I have been in the single parent scene of trying to raise my own 2 boys, I can really understand exactly where this mom is at and the stresses that come along with doing things on your own. Granted she has the opportunity to make amends with her family and regain that support every single parent needs, but feels she can not due to the situation. She provides a home, food, clothing, etc and most importantly love. Sure along the way there will bumps and bruises, and there will be sadness but there will also be happiness.
The camera crew and producers see more than what is aired on the actual shows. So don't you think that if the baby was in ANY kind of danger of abuse, the proper authorities would be called? I would like to believe that any logical person would.
I have always thought, in my opinion, that people without children do not fully understand the daily struggles parents go through, but that is not really truthful. In reality...it may lie more with one's opinions. What I may think as nothing to worry about, the next person could think it is something to worry about. My ex husband is my case in point...for every cut, bruise, and illness...he want to rush them to the ER or blame me for it.
So my question is again...what qualifies some one as a good or bad parent?
Teen Mom (Season 2) Ep. 5 'Secrets & Lies': "Catelynn and Tyler find their romance back on the rocks when Catelynn reveals another lie, and a big fight makes Amber question her engagement to Gary. Maci's boyfriend meets Bentley for the first time, and Farrah falls victim to a scam."
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Ahhh....a mini-vacay!
This past weekend was a jam packed one! I drove to Corpus Christi with mom and the boys for a mini-vacay that was much needed. We left Friday afternoon and almost 8hrs later we arrived in Corpus!
The humidity knocked us over as soon as we got out of the car but regardless we were happy to be there. After getting up to the room I made a quick run to Whataburger for our late night snack before heading to bed. We needed our rest because the next day was packed full of "to-do's". Of course my oldest was up and ready to go at 8am! Our plan was to be down stairs for the buffet breakfast by 9am...we almost made it..lol.
So off to breakfast and backup to the room for our day packs and then off to the Texas State Aquarium! We got there about 10ish and the place was practically empty...perfect! No crowds, no shoving, no rude people walking in front of our pictures..lol.
I was really impressed with the aquarium, everything was laid out well for an easy walk through flow. Lots of hands on to be able to touch the water life in the exhibits. We did a green screen picture that was kinda fun (will post that later). I can't say enough so I'll let the pictures tell the experience! So as we're leaving i see a line going out the door, and point it out to mom...as we get closer I realize the line is not only out the door but through the main walk entrance and down the side. The line had to have been at least a 30min or longer wait just to get to the door! I was soo glad we got there early! We headed down to look for some lunch and found a little "whole in the wall" kinda local place and relaxed a little before heading out again for souvenir shopping. The shopping was done and it was back to the hotel to get ready for the beach! The hotel told about the State Park beach and said its a clean and less crowded beach to visit, so off we went for a short 30min drive to the park. He was definitely right about this...quiet, not as crowded and easy to get to. We enjoyed a few hours of sun bathing, swimming and crab "snorkeling"...
It only took a few hours to realize it was time for dinner! It had been a long day and we needed food! So off we go again in search of food! We found a great little place downtown called City Diner which wasn't half bad, yet another local goodie. Back to the hotel for much needed rest before heading back to Dallas the next morning. We headed back Sunday and the drive was yet again horrible, stop and go for no apparent reason. Once I hit "some" open road I goosed it up to 100mph just to get some time back....got a whole 17min shaved off our ETA to mom's house.
At the end of the drive (less than 5min from mom's), navigation said eta was 6:58pm...the kids were laughing all the way yelling "red light! red light!" I tried to tell them i would make it...sure enough 6:58:05pm i pulled the car in the drive. David was saying that it didn't count because it had been past that time...but we argued it was still 6:58 for 59sec before it didn't count...lol.
All in all it was great trip with a few bumps and aggravations but it just wouldn't be a vacation with that. signing off for now!
(our first stop on the way)
(notice the lump in the roll-away...lol)
(my youngest..Donovan aka Bubba)
(Only my boys would figure out how to snorkel without the snorkel...lol)
It only took a few hours to realize it was time for dinner! It had been a long day and we needed food! So off we go again in search of food! We found a great little place downtown called City Diner which wasn't half bad, yet another local goodie. Back to the hotel for much needed rest before heading back to Dallas the next morning. We headed back Sunday and the drive was yet again horrible, stop and go for no apparent reason. Once I hit "some" open road I goosed it up to 100mph just to get some time back....got a whole 17min shaved off our ETA to mom's house.
At the end of the drive (less than 5min from mom's), navigation said eta was 6:58pm...the kids were laughing all the way yelling "red light! red light!" I tried to tell them i would make it...sure enough 6:58:05pm i pulled the car in the drive. David was saying that it didn't count because it had been past that time...but we argued it was still 6:58 for 59sec before it didn't count...lol.
All in all it was great trip with a few bumps and aggravations but it just wouldn't be a vacation with that. signing off for now!
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